When Did My Low Self Esteem Begin?
I don't know when my low self esteem behaviour began but I recognized that my conversation, or my thoughts were not acceptable. The sad part is, I didn't label myself as having low self esteem when I was overly critical or expecting more from some family members.
I noticed that I was very judgmental and had to voice my opinion on things.
I never had a lot of trust in others, and I used the excuse of being "very independent". Even though I have always been a giving and helpful person, I would at times feel I was being taken for granted or taken advantage of.
I am older now and I have noticed I have withdrawn from social events and even church. I would rather stay at home and watch TV even church on Sundays.
I feel I don't fit in anywhere anymore. I have phone conversations and when I do I tell myself when its over, that I talked too much and just rambled about everything.
In the list above I can say that I admit to 8 out of ten of the low self esteem signs.(NOT GOOD)
My children are adults and I try not to be depending on them for too much.
I am at the point where I have more time and I want to change my faults and become a better person. I recognize that I can use some self help tools and work to be the best that I can be.
I give advice to others now its time for me to get some advice.
I have always liked reading self help books and listening to wisdom from others and I guess I just drifted away from that for a long time and now I just do puzzles. But it is time for me to work on being the best that I can be, and find the help that I need.
I just "HAPPENED" to find this web site and I am so happy that I did. I am learning a lot already.