I feel so ugly all the time.
When I wake up in the morning and look at myself in the mirror, all I see is an ugly girl. Nothing really helps me feel pretty. When I put on some makeup, I feel even uglier.
When I do my hair perfectly and have the cutest outfit, I think "This would look better on a pretty girl"
There are times when I feel beautiful, but then when I see a prettier girl walk passed me, all my confidence just disappears.
I feel like I'm never going to find someone who thinks I'm beautiful and who loves me because I'm so ugly. When there's a guy who likes me, I never let myself believe it. I always think "How can he think I'm cute? I'm gross" and when I do let myself believe it, I always end up getting hurt. They always end up leaving. I don't know why, like did I make that easy for them to walk right in and out of my life?
When I close my eyes, I imagine myself beautiful. I imagine myself looking like a princess. My friends say I'm gorgeous, but I mean, they are my friends, they are supposed to support me right! All of my friends are so beautiful, and when I'm with them I feel like I'm the rotten apple in a garden of roses.
I used to go to my room and cry and blame my parents for making me so ugly. I don't understand why I got blessed with the bad looks. My whole family is beautiful. My mom is drop dead gorgeous and my dad is so handsome. All my sisters are beautiful, except me.
I haven't always been this negative on myself, I used to be so confident, until one day a guy at school said "You're so ugly. You're probably going to end up with no one. I mean, what guy is ever going to want you?"
Those words changed everything on how I saw myself.
My self-esteem just crashed down. That really hurt coming from a guy. I soon started to believe him and ever since then, I've never felt completely beautiful. I know I shouldn't feel this way, but I do. I can't help it.
A New Way of Seeing Self-Esteem?
Steve here, and for the last few years (since Oct 2012, actually) I've been seeing (and thinking about) low self-esteem in a different way. Not as a problem to fix, but as feedback to notice (and nothing more). That's right: nothing to fix, everything to notice. And all this became obvious to me after being introduced to the Three Principles behind life (in Oct 2012).
I created a free 1-page Self-Esteem Guide that explains more, anyway. You can read about it here (NO EMAIL REQUIRED) - SMNash.com/self-esteem-guide/
Thank you - Steve