Today was a decent day. I only started to cry once. I cry because I feel like I'm about to lose it. I will myself to stay strong, it is so hard.
My story is about the same as so many others. My husband of 31 years has had very little work for about 5 years. He is now working full steam, 7 days a week if he can. We just can't get ahead.
I worry every day my house will be foreclosed on. We only owe about $7,000.00 on it. If it goes, I will have lost everything I own. The creditors call all the time. We don't believe in bankruptcy. You make the bill, you pay it. That is how we feel.
Because we have made a little money we couldn't get assistance. We make too much. We have made enough to pay our utilities and buy food. And it has not been high quality food either.
I'm so sick and tired of seeing people with food stamp cards driving nice cars and wearing more gold than I sold to feed my family. They wear nicer clothes than I did when I had a nice size savings account.
I go to work every day; a job I've had for 16 years. I work with kids with special needs. Most of my check goes for health care for our family. Both my husband and I have health issues, we can't go without insurance.
I have loved this job for many years. I guess I would still love it if I weren't so stressed out. But, you know when a kid tells you to shut up, multiple times when all you ask them to do is sit up and not sleep in class...... Enough is enough. I bring home barely enough to cover my gas expense and well, I'm there to teach, not watch someone sleep.
I'm sorry, I have so much more to say, but at this point I just don't know how to get my point across. I'm tired, scared, hurting, and can't get a good nights sleep because I'm to stressed out.
I'm hoping tomorrow is a better day, and the next.......