Alone I Sat
by Chandra Sigamoney
(Edmonton, Alberta, Canada)
Trees
Chandra
Group Hug
(Story theme: Overcoming fears)
Alone I sat - Solo Day
Alone I sat under the shades of the alpine trees
For many hours until the sun refused to shine
fear, anxiety and nervousness gripped me
The wilderness stared at me
Many small insects came to cheer me up
The creek sang a never ending song
Alone I cried but no one heard
Alone I prayed for someone to hold and love
I was sad, lonely and lost for words
As every second reminded me of the past
The many days and night I sat alone
This day was not what I wanted
The outward bound Canada program
was hard in the beginning
This was not what I wanted
I lost my laughter, smile and joy
I prayed ever so hard for healing
Healing from pain, hurt and soreness
Words echoed "you can do it" and "you will do it"
Tears like a fountain streamed down my face
Suddenly, one day, there was an epiphany
As I threw my rock of pain, hurt and soreness
into the dark bottomless depth of the turbine canyon
never to be seen or followed
Joy tingled me ever since that day
I smiled, laughed and hugged my friends
I'm thankful for the blessing, the lessons I've learned
Now I am ready to move forward and face the world
The outward bound Canada program
alleviated me from hopelessness to hopefulness
Crushed my sorrow and built my joy
Lifted me up to stand firm, strong and with courage - Thank you!
~
Chandra
18th September 2012