My Voice and Low Self Esteem
by Terrible Voice
It all begun when I realised this weird thing about me!...
Well, I'm 18 years old. I believe I have good looks, I am very fit (I play sports, go the gym...) and I'm tall but my voice sucks. Plus I am not obsessed about my looks.
It all begun when I was a little kid and heard my voice from my friends' mobile phone. I was shocked. Its not a high pitched voice, it's a normal voice, but I cant get it to work properly.
My low self-esteem symptoms go like this...
I don't speak much because I'm afraid that they will not like the way I speak. My voice sound is not that bad but for an odd reason I tend to speak too fast and my tongue usually slips. When I hear my self speaking I feel so depressed... I'm so jealous of ALL the other people who don't have a problem like this.
I am always thinking that the others wont understand what I'm saying and that my tongue will slip by the next second. I try thinking not to speak that fast but still I don't like the way that my voice is coming out...
This is also bad because in a conversation people will unintentionally pay no attention to what I am saying because my voice has no power...
Girls run away from me as soon as they hear me talking. It makes me feel so lonely.
I also want to say that although I love sports and going to the gym regularly, I believe one of the reasons I always want to stay fit is because my self esteem is so low
. So there is another symptom of low self-esteem
The others think that I am a boring person because I don't talk much but in reality I am not. They usually ask me "What?" or "Can you repeat that?". This drops my self esteem to the ground...
This voice is ruining my life. I've given up trying to get a girl because
I know that the way I speak is a huge turn off. I am in the age where everyone is thinking about girls but my voice makes it impossible for me... Maybe I'm overeacting but that is the way I feel.
I hate my voice and the way I speak.... I am sick of myself
Sorry for my bad English