My Low Self Esteem Signs 08
My parents and all my significant others have told me throughout time that I lack self trust and I have low self esteem. I always told them that they were wrong, that I trusted myself and everything, but I never really thought about it seriously.
I'm dating a nice boy now, and I have realized I DO have low self esteem, because I compare his personality with mine. He's always self-confident, and everybody tends to listen and pay attention to him. I'm not that noticeable and I just realized. He tells me he loves me, but I just don't believe him.
So... here are my low self esteem signs, which I just noticed since I dated my (nice) new boyfriend:
- I don't trust him (nor anybody, except maybe my parents, brother and sister and that's all)
- It's hard for me to compliment myself and I don't believe people who tell me nice things. I believe that they must want something from me or are making fun of me
- I don't think the things I know, the work I do, etc., are 'enough' and think that I'm still too insignificant and ignorant
- I sometimes wake up and think how pathetic my life is (and I don't even know why)
I think those are the most significant symptoms of my low self esteem. But mainly, I get depressed easily, I can't find value in myself... and the thing I worry about the most: no matter how many times my beloved one tells me he loves me, I just don't believe him, and that's hurting him.
I realized about this problem thanks to him.
I really want to change.