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My Low Self Esteem Depresion

by J
(Australia)


Depression is a shadow of my low self-esteem


Hello,

Uhmm, it feels weird to share my shame; I have mixed emotions to the fact that someone cares. From the stories I read in last few months I have come to one conclusion: I can identify my story with many others and I won't write same things again.

Through all my life I was suspecting that something was not right, but I just got used to the upsides and downsides.

Currently I learned that the values, which I strongly believed were positive and perfectly healthy, turned out to be the symptoms of low self-esteem.

1) So I thought that "revealing too much personal information about me" would be helpful, would help gain trust of others and their friendship...

2) I believed that "being critical of myself and others" (e.g. at work) would bring better results, and people would see me as a hardworking, trustworthy and reliable employee.

3) And when I was asked to say something about myself, I was proud that I am someone who "tends to be a perfectionist".

These days I am hanging by the moment.

My "most valuable" behaviours turned to dust and I am on the hunt for new effective and fast techniques to build healthy fundaments of my self-esteem.

Thank you for the opportunity to share my "star dust" ;) and good luck to all of us!

Jodie




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May 30, 2011
I care!
by: Steve

I certainly care about how you see yourself, J, especially when it echoes how I sometimes see myself.

It feels so pointless, so unnecessary, for you and I (and others) to be 'less' than we can be, to live our lives in this 'lesser' way.

When you share how it is for you, J, it makes me recognise how this is for me, sometimes too. And it helps me take action, or choose posiitve thoughts about my self, so I can move away from this 'less'.

And I hope it has helped you to share your symptoms of low self esteem here.

It is truly humbling to witness another human being's self-honest, especially when it's about that human's shame.

So THANK YOU J, thank you!...

And [I care about how you see yourself!]

Steve

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