Stories from the Collective...

My Low Self Esteem Depresion

by J
(Australia)

Depression is a shadow of my low self-esteem

Hello,

Uhmm, it feels weird to share my shame; I have mixed emotions to the fact that someone cares. From the stories I read in last few months I have come to one conclusion: I can identify my story with many others and I won't write same things again.

Through all my life I was suspecting that something was not right, but I just got used to the upsides and downsides.

Currently I learned that the values, which I strongly believed were positive and perfectly healthy, turned out to be the symptoms of low self-esteem.

1) So I thought that "revealing too much personal information about me" would be helpful, would help gain trust of others and their friendship...

2) I believed that "being critical of myself and others" (e.g. at work) would bring better results, and people would see me as a hardworking, trustworthy and reliable employee.

3) And when I was asked to say something about myself, I was proud that I am someone who "tends to be a perfectionist".

These days I am hanging by the moment.

My "most valuable" behaviours turned to dust and I am on the hunt for new effective and fast techniques to build healthy fundaments of my self-esteem.

Thank you for the opportunity to share my "star dust" ;) and good luck to all of us!

Jodie