I Feel Damaged
My symptoms of self esteem in 1 word: "damaged"
I see my self esteem as damaged by life and also the choices I have made and sometimes still do make. It feels like a bit of a battle really to make the right choices.
For me low self esteem is when I feel false and am not able to open up to to others and let them see what is really going on for me because maybe I am embarrassed. I don't handle rejection well. At times calmness seems impossible despite wanting it desparately.
To the outside world I think I seem competent but inside I feel damaged.