Compulsion to Please
I have a compulsion to please...
My low self esteem signs include my desire to please and impress people all the time. I feel that if I'm not giving or doing for someone then I'm just so inadequate and no one will bother with me.
Other symptoms of low self esteem include the fact that I find it hard to relax and just be myself, be casual. And, I can be a perfectionist too!
Yes, being 'casual' is such hard work for me.
That's why I practice what to say to people, what to do etc. Then when I'm in a situation I try so hard to make it look casual and natural - but it's hard work.
As I said, I'm a perfectionist and I know I do a good job at impressing others.
However, I am still not accepted or won't be included in anything unless I try soooooo hard.